When I started the meds, I had no experience with opiates, and no knowledge of what they could do. I didn’t know anything about addiction.
Category: Pill Addiction
Motherhood is hard, and so is struggling an addiction and finding recovery. Gabrielle found her way, because she never gave up hope.
I have a complicated relationship with pills. I love that I have emotional stability. I hate that I can’t just pull myself up by the bootstraps and carry on.
I was the soccer mom, the football team mom, even the chaperone for school dances and booster club meetings. I was all in. Gradually though, my life became about using to not get dope sick. I was a drug addict.
It’s exhausting to be in active addiction, you never get a break. You’re always worried about your next high; so much so, that you don’t even enjoy the high you’ve got. It’s exhausting keeping the lies straight, trying to meet new people to steal from, and trying to keep loved ones off your back.