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Dear Alcohol…

Dear Alcohol, You took my life apart, piece-by-piece, and destroyed it. At first I didn’t notice it was you - it couldn’t be, because you were my friend.

When I got sober I went to detox, and then to an outpatient program. For over a year I attended an early recovery group meeting once a week along with therapy and a 12-step program. I was asked to write this letter…a goodbye letter to my addiction.

Dear Alcohol,

I’m not even sure where to begin…what to say. I’m writing this letter to say goodbye. I never really thought I’d ever say those words to you, or really let you go.

You’ve been my rock for so long; my everything.

Whether good or bad you have been the one thing I could count on. I trusted you… I put my faith in you… and you let me down. You promised you’d keep me safe, that nothing would hurt. You promised I could do anything with you by my side, and I’d be the best at it. You whispered in my ear you’d never leave me, that you’d always be there.

You lied.

You lied and lied, and then lied some more. The truth is you didn’t make anything better. You didn’t help me fix anything. You didn’t protect me from all the bad.

You left me out there to hang myself. You didn’t make my life better. I wasn’t prettier. I wasn’t a better mom. The friends you told me I’d make, the places I would be able to go as long as I had you with me…they weren’t real. It was just one big fantasy.

I still hurt, and I was still alone.

You took my life apart, piece-by-piece, and destroyed it.

At first I didn’t notice it was you. I thought it was “them,” it couldn’t be you because you were my friend.

But it was you; it really was. I tried so many times to leave you; to walk away with the confidence that I could live without you, but you kept calling.

So nagging and convincing, you got me every time. I believed the next time would be different. The more I tried, the harder and harder it got to walk away.

I knew it wasn’t right, you weren’t right, but I just kept going back for more. You convinced me that if I couldn’t have you, nothing mattered—not my family, my girls, my life, not even Me. You told me there was no Me without you.

But there is. I am Me without you.

The truth is I don’t need you. I don’t need you to fix the problems you create, I don’t need you to feel, and I don’t need you to make me a better person.

All you are is a bottle of lies wrapped up nice and pretty. It’s not real…none of it is real with you, Alcohol…nothing.

So, My Friend, here is where I tell you that I loved you. I loved you more then I loved myself for so long.

But with you I’m no one…with you I’m dead.

So today, My Dear Friend, I bid you farewell.

I’d like to tell you I cant wait to see you again, that I’ll call you soon, but I won’t.

I can’t.

Please don’t call me, don’t reach out. We both know our relationship ends in only one place.

And today, it’s no place I want to be.

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  1. That is just Wow! I think to actually write a letter to our addiction would really make a big difference in ones recovery. I think I would like to do the same. Thank you for sharing and giving me another idea to gain strength in my recovery and to stand strong!! Your a very courageous, honest, beautiful woman and mother 🙂

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    thanks lindsay i think it was a huge help in my recovery to write a letter to my addiction , it made things as stupid as it sounds i felt relief like it was more real for me .

  3. Very nice letter/post. You too can have a long term of sober living with only two requirements.

    1. Don’t drink.
    2. Don’t die.

    Nuff said?

  4. What a wonderful thing to do. So well said. I might read it out at my meeting?
    I will write a letter too. Thanks for sharing.

  5. Dear alcohol,

    I thought you were my friend but you are actually my worst enemy.

    It’s time to lay you down once and for all. The ‘I’ll just have a couple’ never works as it is always the start of the journey to hurting yourself and the people you love the most. Maybe not on the first night you ‘have a couple’ but somewhere in the future you will find yourself in that horrible hole that alcohol puts you in. Today the 1st of January 2019 I have made the decision to cut you out of my life forever. Goodbye alcohol. You are no friend of mine. Xx

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