Sober Mommies I Tried To End My Life

I Tried to End My Life and It Didn’t Work

“I’m here because I tried to end my life and it didn’t work.”
The words flew out of my mouth before I felt the weight of their meaning, and I fought back tears once it came.
I am here for so many reasons, but my life restarted the day after I tried to end it — the day I decided it was maybe worth living. The day I realized that ending my life would mean leaving her behind.

I Had a Miscarriage in Recovery and I Am Not Okay

I had a miscarriage. I was pregnant and then I wasn’t; just like that. We swore we didn’t want anymore kids, and then life seemed to fall into place. We thought about the possibility, when the time was… Read More

I Didn’t Feel Anything

**Trigger Warning: childhood sexual abuse** I laid there, staring at the ceiling; wondering how my life had become this way. I knew in my head I should feel sad, but I didn’t feel anything. I felt numb. I… Read More

Sober Mommies I Was Shamed Into Sobriety After I Was Sexually Assaulted *trigger warning* #rapeculture #victimblaming #alcohol

I Was Shamed Into Sobriety After I Was Sexually Assaulted

**Trigger Warning**   When I was 24, I was raped. “Because I was drunk, I blamed myself.” I don’t remember the details. I remember bits and pieces – walking up the steps to his apartment, a room full… Read More

I’m Not Perfect. I Still Get Angry, Sober.

It’s easy to get angry about the injustice and senseless pain going on in our world today. At people who can’t drive or chew with their mouths closed. You know, the everyday shit that matters. As a mom,… Read More