I’m grateful for this website even though I don’t belong here yet. I’m grateful that I can feel like a part of your stories even if I’m holding a drink while reading them.
There’s no one tool that worked for me, but I have a “recovery toolbox” that helps me feel supported as I build my new life.
There is a part of me—even after seventeen years of sobriety—that whispers ever-so-seductively every summer that it might be acceptable to start drinking again.
It is now 4:15 am. I woke up sober. I can’t sleep. I feel guilty, ashamed, and embarrassed. I know what’s wrong with me. I am a drunk. Every day I tell myself that tomorrow will be different…. Read More
A voice that sounded like mine whispered that today a drink would feel amazing. A drink would make me feel whole and perfect. I would be able to breathe deeply and fit “right” inside of my skin. My problems would evaporate, seeming weightless and unimportant. Life would feel wonderful.