Tag: fear

I Struggle With My Purpose

With or without a drink I am socially confused, anxious, and worried. With or without a drink I am a mom, wife, daughter. With or without, I am a woman who – like many before me – struggles…. Read More

Fear & Loathing & Motherhood

I have always been a really fearful person. I can’t even remember a time when my thoughts and actions were not dictated by the fear of other people. I learned very early that vulnerability is often confused with… Read More

My Life Revolves Around Drinking

I watched my mother die shortly after Midnight on September 18, 2014. She was an alcoholic. She was also my best friend. She turned 65 while in the hospital, just four days before she died. I don’t remember… Read More

Drinking Was My Solution

When I first started attending a 12-step program, I remember people saying that in order to stay sober, I had to change the person I brought in. I was told the way to do that was taking the… Read More

Is My Daughter Destined for Alcoholism?

When I found out I was pregnant, I was elated. We had just started trying to conceive (full disclosure: we tried once and BAM!), and I was thrilled at the prospect of starting a family. But after the… Read More